Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

Thank you Cutterbug! I will just remove it before he comes over. Easy, simple and non confrontational!

Okay he left. So I came back from grocery shopping and asked how his time went with our baby. I showed him a cute santa hat and booties that I bought. He liked them. I know we aren't supposed to talk about the future BUT I just said that we should have have our baby wear it when we get the tree on Wednesday and take some pictures.

I made some dinner (just for me) and he told our baby how he'll get to eat the yummy food mom makes some day.

I said that our baby was going to love all of the lights in the house and it's too bad we couldn't find a place for the tree in the den since that is where we hang out. (We usually put it in the front room) WH suggested that we move the love seat in the den and put the tree there. I said that my family would need to gather around and I don't know if we'll have room. He said that people could still hang out in the front room and we could put the fake tree there.

I am only mentioning this because when I have brought up Christmas talk he doesn't comment and gets quiet. I am not saying that by conversing with him today that it is a good thing, I just hope that by me talking about it like we will have Christmas with or without him that he at least feels some longing, you know?

Then he played with our baby and showed me some new moves.

As he left he said in an upbeat way you guys have a great night,and I'll see you tomorrow! I said okay, I hope you can feel better and try to just rest. See you tomorrow!

Let's see.. another small but possible "overanalyical" observation. At times our bodies touched when he was holding our son and I kissed him goodbye or when I held him and he came over to pick him up or say goodbye. In the past, I would have pulled away quickly if his hands touched mine or our legs touched. This time I just let them touch. He didn't pull away either. I KNOW that's not a big deal, but I wonder if he noticed I wasn't pulling away like I have in the past.