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[awest1217]

Not too much detail, but things are going really well. H and I had a really bad yet good day on Friday when S got his tubes. OW called to check on S and to say she was going to buy S jeans. I got really upset and that just set everything off. I told H everything I have been saying on here, and he just reassured me and let me know I was wrong. He told me everything and did not try to hide anything. I even checked his phone and got mad about some texts he sent OW, but he didn't get mad or anything. He said he understands that he is going to have a lot to prove when he comes home. He said he wants to be home before Christmas. He said how he is scared that his mom is going to get him a bunch of stuff for living on his own for Christmas and he said that he does not want that. He does not want to live alone anymore. He said he does not want to be with OW because she is too "high maintenance". He said right now he is not coming home because he wants to make sure he does not have any feelings for OW before he comes home because that is what I deserve. There was a lot in the conversations, but everything was great! H stayed even after we talked for a while, and came over for a bit on Saturday. He helped put up the outside lights because my sister was still gone and he didn't want me on a ladder with no one there. He then stayed for a little while and we just hung out with S. We have been texting just fun stuff all weekend and really starting to get along. He now knows exactly how I feel and he said it was good because otherwise he would have come home in a few weeks thinking I was over everything when I am not yet. He knew I wasn't but I wasn't acting that way.

I am still being a little cautious, but H really is changing and is proving it! Am I falling head over heels...no, but we are starting to become friends again, which is better than anything else right now. Plus I have hope again and really do believe he is going to leave OW for me. He said he has to make sure he is completely over OW and ready to cut her out completely. He doesn't want to come home and not do that because it would ruin everything again.

S is doing much better! The tubes went great. He had a hard time with the anesthetic, but once that wore off he was great! He is even sleeping in his "big boy bed". Between feeling closer to H and his ears not hurting probably for the first time in months, he is finally feeling safe again. It is so wonderful and I am looking forward to an awesome reconciliation.

Through everything this weekend H keeps talking about buying me all these "christmas presents" no talk about our anniversary, but I also am not bringing it up because that is something I really want to see what will happen. Next weekend I am planning on making christmas cookies. The next weekend maybe ice skating with friends, and the next is our anniversary (hopefully good things, but who knows), but finally Christmas the weekend after.