H is coming home tomorrow, I havent seen him for a fortnight as he was up at the beginning of the week before last then busy with stuff the following week. This is the going to be the longest time he has stayed with him saying so before hand, up till now hes said he's coming for a few days then lottered lol! He is coming up tomorrow and staying till saturday, then heading off again for three days to do his photography then coming back, definitely till friday but hasnt said when hes going back after that!

We have been having some honest talks over msn cant talk on the phone easy as his mobile has an awful signal where he lives. But have certainly started talking more open about how he is feeling, and also a big break through is actually talking about going to the docs and sorting out his sleeping problems and even talking about the fact he is probably depressed!

Now for the giggle, my twenty one year old quite open spoken son popped in tonight, and when I mentioned I was chatting with his dad and briefly what it was about he said he had spoken with him friday, ohh dear I said "your dad told me he was quite depressed friday did he sound it" S replied "yes he asked me when I was going to visit and moaned I hadnt popped in to see him whilst I was near him on my first aid course this week, and I turned round and asked him, when was he going to see sense and move home, adding that at the beginning he thought he may have a point but now he cant see the point of him being on his own being miserable when he could be back with us" I so laughed and laughed I couldnt believe he'd said it, well I could but you know what I mean, he had said exactly what I have wanting to have said for weeks lol! Although I did say to H last night I didnt want to be his friend, well not in the context of a friend and not a husband!

So wish me luck folks I do think this is going to be make or break time, bearing in mind its a new year in five weeks time it cant have slipped his mind that me having mentioned I have an expiry date its highly likely its the 1st Jan 2010 and Im moving on!

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W 47
H 47
M 24
T 30

Once lost but now found and happily married again!