I hope you had a good Thanksgiving. It was really nice to see a quick note from you...the last couple of weeks have been not so great.
H made his plane ticket reservation for Dec. 9th and is headed to Montreal. Yesterday we went and had our signatures notarized on D settlement papers to be filed with court. H signed over title of the car to me and I've been doing my absolute best to detach and GAL. I've had some slip ups as we are unbelievably still living and working together. He also has not yet told his mom and sister he is leaving. Of course the drama queen picks the holidays but from reading some posts it appears this is a popular time. The countdown is on...I am not even sure if he will give the proper 2 weeks notice at work and I am dreading this upcoming week more than anything.
I've been very brief with my answers and have not initiated any R talk and told him many times "I'm sorry you feel that way", etc. Just trying to hold it all inside. My nephew is coming to stay for a week at the end of December so am focusing on the visit and over the weekend have put up some holiday decorations, tree, etc to make it festive for him as I know after Dec. 9th probably won't feel like doing much.
H has just turned a blind eye to anything and just blames everyone else and is putting all his hopes that this will make him happy. He hopes I can be happy one day too.
I been kind of at the point where there seems no other alternative to him leaving because he won't see a counselor, he won't give our marriage a try so just sitting around here together is not going to do any good. I believe he needs to take the journey it is just so difficult that it will be so far away. That makes it so permanent. However, I truly do need some alone time and no doubt there will be some relief not to walk on eggshells for awhile...we'll see.
I think of you off and on and it seems odd but at times we kind of feel like friends and can hang out once and awhile but that ugly, side of him frequents his personality now more often than not.
Take care and let me know how things are going in your world, Michele
M 42 H 41 Together 23 yrs M 16 yrs. D papers signed 11/28/09 Date of Departure 12/9/09 Taking it 1 hr at a time
