Moving on with my life!

[Startingover2]

Yep..the drugs and drinking are definate deal breakers. On Tgiving I felt that same sick feeling I used to feel when he was on something. Don't want to go there again.

Im not even sure the married gf thing is off completely either. I haven't snooped on his email in awhile, but curiosity got the best of me this morning. Yep, there are a ton of emails in the past few weeks from her begging, pleading for him not to pull away and leave her. She said that it seems he could go a week or more at a time without seeing her and think nothing of it. She says he never calls and never says ILY (ok, barf). That last one was Wednesday and she said she will give him the space he needs and sorry he was so miserable. My exh is a cake eater. He wants her there just in case he may need her. When we were married and having issues with OW the counselor told him "you need to end all contact with her. NOTHING. NADA." He couldn't do it. He always had to leave a little crack in the door.

He may be doing this to spend more time with baby. I really don't know his motives. I just hate it.

I don't want to be sucked in either, but honestly it was so nice to hear those words and feel some attention. Haven't had ANY in 18 months!