Forgive AND forget?

[WCW]

Thanks PS and MsI. I hope you had an enjoyable day!

I'm feeling frustrated and overwhelmed thinking about the uphill climb to a better future. If I would have cut loose from H when this started I feel I would already be in a better future, at least for sure a different future! Yet I am still stuck butting my head against blocks that H puts in my path. UGH!

We can talk pretty easy about almost anything except us or debt. It was unexplainable timing that I had just asked H about ideas for better financial flow on the ranch and his phone rang. His phone was laying on the table and I saw the caller id - a first name only BUT intuition told me it was the guy that H was getting his secret hideway from a few years ago. I asked H if he owed him money - "I don't think so, I don't know! He wants me to help with a project."

Ok, so the bright side is he gave me at least part of an honest answer about who it was. I am pretty tempted to call the guy and find out the rest of the story.

Things with H have just been different in a good but yet weird way. He's home more in the evenings, and it's weird with him being here after being absent for years. Physically he will barely be near me and I wonder if I'm sending some signals he is misinterpreting.

I have suggested some things we should do to better the place and he actually said one of my ideas was good and agreed to the rest.

One foot in front of the other, slow and steady wins the race, blah blah blah. I want to hit turboboost!!!