Thanksgiving was aaaawfulllll But I've made a turnaround. I am working on taking back my power. I;m tired of my H bullying and abusing me. It started when I saw him doing the same thing to our S. Suddenly my Mamabear instincts kicked in and I was ready for D! I'm actually plotting my case now. I've calmed down since, as we are actually finally starting MC after eight months since bomb. But I"m planning my life secretly just in case. I'm keeping my distance big time and standing over my S and watching H like a hawk.
H must have sensed it. In true DB style, he touched me for the first time in eight months (without me asking). When he met us at a christmas parade, he touched my back when saying hello. Then he placed video camera around my neck. It was amazing. They do pick it up when you are ready to move on.
His nice guy attitude is making me mushy again, but I have to buck up. I have to keep plottin gmy D case and my life without him while still giving MC a chance. I'm finally certain, after seeing him with S, that HE MUST CHANGE TOO - I'm done grovelling. OR ELSE I'M NOT TAKING HIM BACK. And believe me, this is a far cry from the despair I've been in all these months.
