it's gonna take everything for me to be calm, not get emotional and hold it together if he does show up. we first have to meet with the counselor seperately and then together.
i think i need to set some goals for me personally and i know if dr and db i'm supposed to look for small positive changes. i don't know.
i think in the short term i do want him to be tehre for the birth if he has been making progress towards reconcilliation. i don't quite know how to get there from this point. i'm dark and don't want to break the silence and pursue and pressure.
Me 39 H 30 d 18 previous marriage d 2.5 with H s 4.5months with H Seperation Nov09 july i'm dim to dark - set internal deadline
