For those with a WAS...How do you cope?

[courts0818]

Thank you for the kind words and support.

I'm journaling for Day 2 (Friday) & Day 3 (Saturday)
Day 2 was great. 3 things I was thankful for:
1. My sister and my mom helped me with DD
2. The awesome sales I found at Toys R Us
3. Margarita, chips and salsa with my friend/co-worker

On Friday morning, H sent a text regarding my plans for the evening and if I needed help with DD. I waited 2 hours to text him back - just saying I didn't know what time I was going out and that if he wasn't availabe to watch DD my mom was going to watch her. So my response to his text was short, honest and strictly business. After I sent it, I didn't hear back from him and that was fine bc I did NOT expect that I would - so I didn't find myself disappointed. - that is key, letting go of the expectations.

Day 3 has been more challenging. I've noticed myself being a little short on patience and just a little IDK, maybe grumpy. This is not really bc of H. It's bc I've had a sore throat and a cold since Tuesday and I have not been able to sleep for 4 days. : ( Feeling a little icky and very tired, but not down in the dumps. Gonna make the most of the rest of my night with DD. We did get out the Christmas decorations and she's loving that. : )

3 things I'm thankful for today:
1. The sun was shining and we had blue skies
2. DD keeps telling me, "Mommy I like you." So sweet!
3. The wonderful feeling of memories, happiness and family when looking through the Chirstmas decorations - warms my heart.

Haven't heard from H today, but I'm not focsuing on that. I think maybe I'll do something special with DD - like make hot chocolate and read a bunch of her Christmas books as we sit in front of the fireplace, near the Christmas tree. That sounds great, so I'm off to do that.

Keeping my head up and marching on. : )