u are not insane, just human. Don't be so hard on yourself. Not too many people have to go through what we have, give yourself credit. What u lose will be returned to you many times over.
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11