I have let H know we need to have a talk soon about where we go from here. That will include the transparency issue. H agreed we need to do that, but is finding all kinds of reasons that hasn't happened yet. (shock!)
I will make sure it happens. (even tho I am still freakin' scared)
In the meantime, there is a fundraiser event for his work tonight. H has to go early to help set up etc. So, my plan is to show up looking like a million bucks and GAL my a$& off!
I actually don't feel like doing this, because I have been struggling a lot emotionally the last couple of days, but I am doing it anyway! I know I need a fun night out, and it is the perfect opportunity for some 180's. I have tended to be reserved in group settings before and I am going to push myself out of comfort zone and chat everyone up (particularly the men... hehehe).
