Coming up on One-Year of DB'ing...

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Continued...

YES, I GIVE HIM TOO MUCH ATTENTION... (And, that's a changin'! TODAY!)

He honestly takes for granted that you'll always be there,
never mind giving him space, give yourself some space, take care of yourself, he obviously knows how to push your buttons.

I'm handling this.

Today, H tells me he has to go pick up a truck that his driver crashed, and deliver it somewhere. Taking our family friend/handyman w/to drive him to it, and back.

(We were planning on taking the boys to dinner and the varsity boys basketball game - an hour away.) He asks if we will still go. Initially, I said no, as it was a pain to drive way out to this place, etc... Then, when he came back in the room I told him we were leaving late this afternoon, and we're not only going to the game, but this awesome steak house in the town. Cute little town, great restaurant, boys get to go to their game. Works for me!

And, tomorrow am, he'll take the boys bowling w/my family. I'm going to get up and go out shopping while they're gone, and not tell anyone! (Rebellious, EH? LOL)

When is the last time you guys spoke about your relationship and it's current status?

Probably March. I had a melt down after an event we attended.

ILYBINILWY is often code for "I found someone new & exciting and you've lost your lustre in my point of view".


Could be in this case, as well. Could be he was just pushed too much, based on what he's told me.

Rob, I honestly did everything wrong for the first YEAR after the bomb. You'd slap me if I gave you the list. I could slap myself.

Since I've been db'ing, it's been... peaceful. I'm "going along" with the program. Some wise DB'ers kept telling me to wait it out.

I'm done waitin'. After these holidays, it's getting sorted out. F*ck it.



And, PS - I'm cute. I'm fun. I'm smart as hell. AND, successful in my career. I could get a freakin' boyfriend. Easy. It would be nice if it were my H.