Can I save my marriage?

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Well. Just one of those days. I think these days come around when my boys are gone. I feel that emptiness, sadness, loneliness everytime H has the kids. Today is day 2 of 5 without them. It is so hard. I did not decide to have children to only see them part time. This is so unfair. I have a 20 month old baby who doesn't even know how to say mom or dad yet and there is a chance that I won't be there the first time he does. I know I'll be okay without H, its not seeing the boys everyday that I can't seem to be okay with.