Well...finally made it here. Two years or so later. Like everyone else (I guess) I thought I would be different (get back together). But alas, I am a survivor! I should have moved here a while ago becasue in my mind I have been divorced for a while. It was official yesterday but there was no sting...not even any regrets...just acceptance....page is turned. U.S. Thanksgiving 2009....the day my daughter turned 9 .... the day I am officially single! Well kind of... A friend on these boards suggested that I am healed...I am looking in from outside the wall....I think I am on the wall...looking in....it has been a rough ride at times but the worst is well behind me. So...I am not sure what posting my sitch contributes here other than perhaps showing folks that there is a way out and things do get better. If I can make one person say "hey look at John210...man he was sooo screwed up and if he can get out alive, so can I" well I will be happy.
I remember some of your early threads where wooglint had to straighten your attitude out. But you did good by giving piecing a chance. It was not your fault that your W picked her own road.
Yep, I see realistic John, but not 'negative John' these days...
Glad I got to meet you here, despite the circumstances. You, Woog, Kerry and Mike have been giving me the male perspective since basically day one and I appreciate it more than you know!
Glad you passed the literal "D-day" unscathed for the most part, no big emotions rising, etc....I hope I will be able to say the same when my turn comes.
Hey ladies (you too kerry) thanks for hanging around...I appreciate your friendship as well. Don't know how I would have made it this far without all your input. You have become part of my daily routine... I miss the old wooglint trying to keep me positive.
D(9) and I are applying finger nail polish (which she got a gift from NGF along with wii resort) to my two big toes!!! Finally...she is actually doing it now as i write...she is ecstatic... :-) I just saw the result of toe #1...wonderful....of course my sandals have been put away for the next six months due to the weather forecast.
So...XW wants to have supper tonight with me and D9...it coincides with her being in the area and that I bring D9 back on Sunday nights. Maybe she wants to celebrate the fact that we are offcially divorced...maybe she just wants a free meal....maybe she has the holiday blues. Well D9 will be there so the conversation should be safe.....still wonder what her motivation is.
I like to keep my XW at phone distance. It is nice that way. She cant get into any deep conversations that make me uncomfortable or remind me of the past.
Hey, I took the kids to a play land (which they loved) at a big asian mall here in Richmond yesterday and I had to stick around in the parents waiting area. So I read some Canadian Maclean's magazines and there was an interesting article about how corrupt and mafia infested Montreal is now days. Maybe John210 should run for mayor and clean that place up.
