I am not going to try again till he goes to the doctor. I am not going to try after that even. We talked about it and he said the knowledge he cant make love, restricts his desire. He also said, there is no contact with OW, that he understands how I feel and that he feels he doesn't know what to do, because he feels paralyzed of fear. I said fear what about and he said, fear of screwing up mostly. We had a good discussion about this. We both felt closer to each other after that. He said he will go back to the C to help him out. He agreed to read Mars Venus and told me he tried to read some of my books in English and doesn't understand anything... He said more than once that his decision to be with me and his feelings about me are not questionable. He is happy with getting this chance. We snuggled and slept together. Today the day was so and so. Mostly because of my thoughts... K
