Coming up on One-Year of DB'ing...

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Rob:

OK, I'm doing this w/out too many tears. I'm ready. (I think this means I'm ready to start some movement for my own sanity, as well.)

Also on the physical side, when is the last time you guys got jiggy with it?

I got "the bomb" in 12/07. We had had a diminishing sex life for a few years. I was the ultimate Mom, caught up in the kids... It got to the point where, for a year prior, I was the only that initiated (he enjoyed it though, as did I...). "The Bomb" was... I can't give you everything you want anymore (10,000 sq ft home, new cars, nice wardrobe, Caribbean vacations, etc...). I never thought much of it, since he always somehow made things happen. He tried very hard to give me/us everything possible. He couldn't tell me no. Also, we had had some major stresses w/D18 at the time, and she was being the ultimate teenage pain (lots of emotional turmoil in the home). AND, to make matters worse, he had a bomb dropped on him... We were being pursued by the IRS to the tune of hundreds of thousands of dollars (we are/were small business owners, and I think he put off paying taxes to provide stuff for us.) The IRS situation was ugly, and could have turned criminal.

We have not ML since.

And if it has been a long drought, does he have health issues that prevent him from wanting to be with you?

Not that I know of...

Sounds like he travels alot, is it possible that he's seeing someone else and you don't know it?

He travels for work a lot. He owns a trucking company, and he handles many employed drivers, loads, owner operators, etc... He is gone from Monday afternoon, through Friday evening, with one or two stops home during the week for time w/the family (usually tries to schedule around boys games). He quite possibly be seeing someone else. His schedule is so crazy, I haven't attempted to figure out where he is and when (always has been, nothing new).

I have snooped (on his computer). Nothing. He is very, very LOW tech. I'd catch him if he was logged on somewhere. I don't have access to our cell phone records, since they're paid by his company, and those are paid electronically... never see a bill. I have logon's to the cc's that pay them, but no statements.

There were a few instances of question directly following the bomb, but nothing that wasn't explainable, and I've followed up on the info.

The only thing that bothers me in relation to the possibility of another person is his clingon to his cell phone. But, I will tell you that he's been like that (to some degree) since we married (drivers calling at all hours, txting w/destinations, etc...). It does not leave his person, though.

More to come...