I know that it is the only answer. I feel that this is the first week I have managed to put it into action.
Like you said it is a decision, a hard one, but one that I know must be made. All my pursuing has done to this point is to push her further away, so I have nothing to lose.
The key for me is to see things as they are, not as I want them to be. To face the reality of my sitch, and not let it control me or my actions. I have always taken short cuts, this time there are none. I am determined to keep trying until I get this right.
@ brknheart, I now how you feel, I have had a tough couple of days dealing with those emotions. I find myself thinking about how this could be the last Christmas together as a family etc.
It is this fear that I am going to try my hardest to release. I have to try and live for the now, and not get caught up in the future, but it is easier said than done.
M: 30 W: 32 Married: 9 years s: 2.8 Bomb dropped: 7-10-09 same house, bed, no physical contact My sitch: http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1871805&page=1
