It is just after midnight here, and when I left my parents' Sydney was still awake... She wanted to come home with me. But I am about to take the blinds off every window in the house (yes, at midnight) because JC Penney comes in the morning with all my new shades! Yay, but lots to do before then...hence leaving the kids with my parents.
Feeling down this evening. Had a ton of anxiety-type dreams last night. I was starting 3 different jobs (all piddly minimum-wage stuff) and didn't know my schedules, couldn't be where I was supposed to be, etc. Then something about my kids but I can't remember exactly...then the topper.
I dreamt that Dan came over and told me that ow was pregnant...
Feeling rejected/dejected tonight. There was something in the "He's Just not That Into" book about reconciling with someone who dumped you.
It said, 'before you take them back you need to remember that not long ago, this person took a good, long look at you and what you had to offer, and said, 'no thanks'', or something to that effect.
And I guess tonight it just stings to think that my H could look at me, knowing that despite my flaws, I loved him and was dedicated to him forever, and he could decide that I just wasn't worth it. Wasn't good enough, whatever...
I know it will get better. I was on a good string of 'up' days before today. Even yesterday being home with a sick kid and missing my family thanksgiving didn't really bother me at all. Not sure why today did...
She wanted to come home with me. But I am about to take the blinds off every window in the house (yes, at midnight) because JC Penney comes in the morning with all my new shades! Yay, but lots to do before then...hence leaving the kids with my parents. 
