We had a good Thanksgiving together. I was happy and out-going. I showed him affection and spent time with family. He seemed slightly distant for part of the day but was in a good mood.
I was going to 'flex' off from work today (I am an RN and our patient load is low right now) but it just feels odd to be home, so I came on in. I am off all weekend so we will get a couple of days together. We are putting up the Christmas tree Saturday and a photog friend is coming to the house Sunday to take our Christmas pictures. He asked if he could be in them. I asked if he would be home for Christmas LOL!
He is being loving towards me...physically that is....but it seems slightly reluctant. Maybe I am reading too much into it. I probably am. I am trying to be more affectionate towards him as a relationship 180. Towards the end we were like two people passing each other as we went. He said I should do what makes me happy and kissing him goodbye/hello/goodnight/just because makes me happy. He said today that it was a good change.
He is a different person now. In just 5 weeks I have become married to a new man. I don't know if I like this new person, but change takes time. Nothing is a guarantee right now and I am not looking for that anyway. He is home and we are trying.
I love him, and now I have to learn to love the changed him. It feels thick in the house at times. I think getting the kids back on schedule...and making that an earlier schedule...will help. It is just going to take time to re acclimate ourselves to living together again. I am surprised at how quickly something like that can change.
Me: 33 / H: 36 M: 10y / T: 14y 3 kids BD: 2/22/14 Live in separation 3/8/14 H consult lawyer, says filing asap 4/24/14 H moved out 4/25/14 2nd time around. 1st separation 4y ago lasted a month
