Nice to see you WTBB. Long time, no see. I hope all is well with you and your family.
W came to pick up S this morning. It was extremely painful. Very uncomfortable. Still felt so surreal to be packing up clothes and toys for him to leave our home to go to "mom's house."
She was quick and didn't come past the front entryway. I gave S a big hug and told him to have a nice day. My voice cracked as I said it and in an effort not to make a scene, I ducked into the laundry room. W took him to the car and came back in to check on me. (I didn't realize she caught what had happened) I didn't know she was coming back in. When she came in 30 seconds later, I was sitting on the floor sobbing.
She put her arms around me and said "I'm so sorry." I replied. "I'll be OK in a fairly nonreceptive manor." She asked if I wanted her to leave and I said yes.
Her parents are at her new place for the weekend.
She started to cry each time she talked to S on the phone yesterday. She texted to tell me good morning and to check on S this morning. I had S call her, but did not respond.
I got out a little today and took advantage of some of the black friday sales to replace a couple things in the house that she took with her.
I don't know if I actually miss her or the concept of our family right now. A general awkwardness along with rejection and an overall depressed feeling more than missing her. It comes and goes. It's been so long since things have been really good.
I bought some DVDs put some noise in the house.
Me: 35 W: 31 S:9 M: 10 years Together 13 MySitch - Ups & Downs She moved out the day before Thanksgiving 2009, over 13 months post-bomb.
