I can't tell you what a much better place emotionally I am today than Wednesday when I was dreading the holiday. I did so much better than I thought I might.
I am thinking in some ways Christmas might not be as bad as Thanksgiving. He seems very engaged in the hunt for some presents for the kids and I am sure he will be around for our immediate family activities, at least for the most part. Unless something changes a lot in the next month I highly doubt he will join the extended family again, but that will just be for a relatively short time (rather than a full day like yesterday). It is kind of hard to remember but he seems to be less detached from the kids now than he was a year ago which was still pre bomb. I guess we'll see. The good news is I know I can survive a holiday without him now.:)
