Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[Jstar]

I don't believe he's having an affair at all, i m doubtbul that he will since the last time we were seperated he dated someone and knew what it did to me. but then i reallyhave no clue. he has only said words that he would nto do that again, doesn't want to totally mess things up with us since he knows if he did it again i would never take him back, not taht his words anything at this point.

We were legally married in feb09 but together for almost 3 years if you count the 9 month seperation.

during our time together there has been many stressors of me loosing both parents, grandparents, a miscarriage. i think me needing him so much he just couldn't take it.

he says to me well weeks ago, he has to figure out how to let go of his anger, we saw a counselor once and she said to eliminate all people who were against us not getting back together, to committ to eachother and children and work each day to reconcile, give it a time frame if not improved then to divorce. i was committed but he felt like he was being controled and pressured. so i finally just started doing lrt.

you mention alot about bonding with your son you are a far better person then me. he is not even concerened, well i bet he is he just doesn't know how to do soemthing about it. just like he thinks one day he's going to wake up and suddenly realize he's not angry with me anymore. as i asked him and the counserlor asked how was he going to let go of the anger, answer is nothing but dead silence.

i believe which i can be totally wrong that the closer the birth comes the more he's gonna flip out. in the sense of he's gotta get his crap together. with doing lrt i don't even want to send him my scripted comment about the birth. i think any contact i make he will see it as persuining him which will push him even further away.