Is this the end of my marriage?

[newmama]

P,
if I go to NC after the holidays, I will be inspired by you because
1) You are being completely honest and human about how badly you wanted to contact W for various reasons

2) You have considered it, slept on it, decided to only go through IM

3)You are remaining committed to NC! BRAVO-NC is extremely difficult to do at first and I have read 100s of posts where many people break it so don't let others convince you it's easy (not that they are) and DO FOLLOW the excellent advice of jumpyninja, cutterbug, PDT, and sandi! I will when I go NC

Also--see? I was right that your WW was not evil in not seeing your mom but you're right; she's a coward. Of course aren't all WS or they would have talked to us about their feelings instead of having an A!

Last, WHO CARES if you both duplicate Christmas presents for D because a) you will see D, NOT HER and b) gifts can be exchanged or returned!!!

Keep strong, you are inspiring me!!