K... H is off maybe that's what you are feeling. He's off his rocker. Nothing he does makes sense. He is completely detached from what his fundamental core is.
I don't concern myself over it to much. I am done. I have dropped the rope. He's done. He's dropped the rope.
At this point, (not that he's trying) there is nothing he could do to make me look back. He has lied to me, used me sexually, emotional abused me for a year. There was no need to do this except he is a weak man. I don't like weak indecisive men. He was strong for 16 years and then the last 3 something fundamentally went wrong for him But it is his reality now, that makes it mine.
I grieve the loss of my H, but at least there will be an end to that grieving process. The neutral state I dream of.
M:47 M:18 D16, S19 1st S 1/08-5/08 Reconciled/May 7, 2008 Left again Nov 9, 2009 I Filed: Nov 17, 2009 Final: April 14, 2010 EX walked away from kids too
