Well...I just screwed something up... hopefully not too bad... but wouldn't mind advice.
H and i kept it "light" this morning before he left, bantering back and forth a bit, him talking about people at work etc. We said goodbye, wished him a good day and after he left I just couldn't maintain the facade. I broke down. All of this pressure about setting and enforcing this boundary about transparency, all my fears that he won't stay away from her, having to face my fears about separation and/or D.... it all just seemed to come down on me in the moment. And, because I was alone, it all came out.
Wouldn't you know it.... H forgot something and walked in to find me in that state. I wasn't hysterical or anything, but clearly crying.
H turned cold, said he had to go and left.
Of course now, I feel ten times worse because of the coldness.
How do I recover this situation? Just leave it and get back to the 180's and GALing? Do you think it did a lot of damage?
Geez... I'm only human. It's so hard to see your formerly loving spouse be in such a self absorbed fog.
