Moving on with my life!

[Startingover2]

Yep...an addict for sure. When we were married he was heavy into the pills and not the drinking. The pills alone caused alot of strife in our M. Then when we split, he went more towards the drinking. Now that its so obvious when he is drinking and he is out to prove he isn't an alcoholic, he is reverting back to the pills. Problem for him is I can see the signs when he is on them, nobody else can unless he is completely wasted on them. He was slurring a bit when he was here putting up the lights and then by the end of the day he was not well. I could tell all he wanted to do was go to sleep.

I guess he knows that eventually the pills/drinking will cause major problems between us and its easier to stay away.

Text yesterday:

exh: I miss you guys so much. I wish things were different. I miss my life.
Me: Things could have been different but you chose other women over us.
exh: Its not like that. My heart is with you and baby. I just have issues. (Whatever that means!)
Me: Do you hear yourself? Your heart is here, but you sleep with another woman and you won't stand for US! Makes no sense.
exh: Its not what you think, no matter what you hear.

I left it and turned my phone off.

Yes, he is an addict. Doesn't want to stop.