Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[Jstar]

newmama, hi. bluerain said we said some things in common and you are a saint. I'm 7 months pregnant and WAH left 6 weeks ago. I'm very high risk, been hospitalized, work and he does absolutely nada to help me take care of the house, get water, feed dogs/cats/ change cat box. we are at the p oint of not talking at all. i used to hear alot of i plan on working things out with you, i want to leave the rest of my stuff at the house, y move it out, blah blah. nothing as far as actions.

I have the upcoming birth and maybe i'm mean but i tol dhim if we weren't a family as husband and wife he could not be there for the birth, if he could not help or be there for me now what made him think he could just show up for all the glory of the birth then walk away again. we don't have to go to birthing classes since my births are all planned csections-due to high risk.

we have d2 and i just changed how she is cared for while i work, he no longer will see her, cause me stress and anxiety over the drop offs, issues with his mother caring for our d2. maybe selfish but i think that in light of my pregnancy doing EVERYTHING just me with no support- even no support monetarily wise, i can eliminate some of the stress by not having to see him for exchanges.

so i've now implemented the lrt, next tuesday have a court appointment with concilliation services to try to save the marriage.

i don't want our children d2 or newborn bonding with any OW, don't think it's happened yet, but i never know. i have d18 previous marriage and had so many issues with her father's revolving door of women. i do't want that for my children or the split homes division of holidays. i didn't have these children to be divided.

ok ive rambled of course not sleeping.