I thought about you all day. I wanted it to be good for you. I am SO glad that it was fine.
I remember my first Thanksgiving after Chuck left. I went to visit my friends out west (kids went with grandparents). I sobbed through the entire meal. I have come a long way since then. And so will you.
It is ok to grieve. It gets it out. And every occasion gets easier. You already know that.
But I just wanted to let you know that I care. And I understand. And I think you're turning a corner. To a better life.