Well, Thanksgiving is done. Everyone is off to bed.
Day went well. Everyone was pleasant - just W, S and D.
Tonight, W asked if I wanted her to go to my office's holiday party next week with me. Caught me off guard. I said yes. Then W says she was planning to take the kids to a museum next week and I could join them if I wanted. Really?
The old me would have been hopeful or encouraged by my W's questions. Now, they just seem to make me angry or resentful. Why keep playing the happy couple if we aren't or aren't moving in that direction?
W will, presumably, interview MC's I gave her next week. I am ready to get on with that and wherever that leads us.
It still strikes me as odd how happy, nice and gracious my W can be around me while, at the same time, want me out of her life. I mean, I understand the whole compartmentalizing thing, but I just don't know how you pull that off.
Found some great stuff tonight on opitimism and cognitive therapy. Pretty interesting and useful stuff. Should finish Seligman's "Learned Optimism" before Saturday. Pretty big on him. Thanks Coach.
Anyway, I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving. Despite the reasons we find ourselves here, we all have a great deal to be thankful for, myself included. And, no matter where my M ends up, I know the coming year holds a lot of upside for me. And I plan to make the most of it.
