Sandi, It is really funny that you mention about my kids learning from me or from their mother. I would think that it is a conditioned thing but but sometimes I wonder if it is not genetic. I pretty much gave up on trying to keep the house straight to my standard once the kids were born. It was just too much, sometimes I felt like I was living in squaller. My D13 one day just started keeping her room clean and my S9 is nowhere near that, I hope that one day he will adapt. When all this crap started in July and my W and I were still talking about our R, we both agreed that my D13 was turning into me and S9 was turning into her. D13 already has an anger management issue and knows it, I hope to use that as an excuse to get her to get into professional counseling. Right now her school counselor is her shoulder and confidant. My S9 is turning into my W, probably already developing a codependency thing. We will all need some major work.
Dad and wife will be here any minute, a little nervous b/c they will want me to say that it is over for good and move on and give up. They just don't understand commitment and forgiveness. I would say most people don't. I will pick up the rest later tonight.
Formerly "missherlove"
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Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.
