Play with toys. It takes your mind off everything...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
On the schedule for Monday. If the paperwork is in order, that will be it. All done, end of story.
I need to clean the garage so I can get to the toys! Maybe I'll do that over the weekend. Though if the weather is nice I might have to go out and smash golf balls.
Thanksgiving dinner is Saturday, with almost-x W's parents. I'm making pies! Apple and pumpkin. Tomorrow, I think the kids, at least the little ones, and I might go see "Blindside". I've heard good things about it!
We talk now and then, almost always about the kids. We did talk a little coordinating the date for the D... it works out best for her insurance for it to be at the very end of the month, the first at the latest. I don't know how she is feeling, really. I said once in the past few weeks that we didn't have to finish it (though I'm not really sure I meant it, come to think of it), she made it clear that as far as she was concerned, we did. So, I haven't talked to her about that again.
How do I feel? I don't know. Almost releived. Disappointed. Excited. Sad. You name it, I feel it!
Took myself out to dinner tonight... but she wasn't there! Fortunately the food was good, and the server I had was one I enjoy. (She's very pleasant, and always friendly. She's also married!)
I am planning to have a fun weekend, one way or another!
Had a good day today! I went to the store this a picked up some supplies. Grilled bratwurst for lunch, then the younger three kids and I went to see "The Blind Side". The oldest had plans to go see some friends. All four of us enjoyed the movie. I can't even put it into a category.... but it was good! There was a Coldstone Creamery right next to the theater, so, well, what else could we do afterwards?
When we got home, I put some football home, and promptly fell asleep for an hour, at least! Eventually, I got myself up and made Reuben sandwiches for dinner. S20 said it reminded him of why he comes home from school!
We've all got a lot to be thankful for, even when things are not the way we want them to be, and lots of things don't seem good. I hope everyone has had a great Thanksgiving day!
Just catching up with you here. Been MIA for past while so missed your D finalization.
The very best of luck to you at the start of this new chapter! You sound like a fab guy and I feel life for you will just get better and better.
DBing never fails, does it? Even if we don`t achieve our initial goal-saving the marriage-we`re left with all these wonderful improvements in ourselves(this is no time for modesty!!), have a better idea of what we want out of life and have a healthier approach to all relationships.
The soon to be ex & I don't speak. Not one word. We text when necessary about the kids & e-mail divorce correspondence.
Guess what tho.......I had my best Thanksgiving ever yesterday. No stress. No fear. No anxiety. Just peaceful quiet thankful day with my kids & parents.
Hugs Cookie
M 19 years, MC for 8 months, DB'd for 8 months 4 kids; 18, 15, 14, & 10 I was never meant to be a doormat. It took me years of therapy to become assertive enough to stop his abuse.
