It is because of our sins however -- not yours, but all of our sin, the sins of Man -- that so much misery is in the world, including loneliness.
The last few days, especially this morning, I have woken up and allowed myself again to remember what it was like to wake up with my beloved beside me, to recall having that skin-on-skin contact -- and to allow myself to stop and feel again the loss of that. It is painful.
But then I remember the pain that ex has caused me. All because of her sins against me, all because of the fall of Man. It wasn't meant to be this way. But it is what we have chosen. Having our own way comes with a terrible price.
This may not be of much comfort to you right now, but usually my life has been so crazy and hectic that I haven't been able to even have some alone time, some time to think and to allow our Father to speak to me. I have gotten that today.
On another note, if it weren't for the "wire" (speaking metaphorically like Peter Gabriel here) I would truly have been cut off from my fellow man this day.
HM, perhaps you have to realize that this phase will eventually come to an end. You have to trust that, and have faith in God to lead you through this valley. Perhaps focusing so much on the pain of this now is what has you stuck in it -- maybe it is time to shoulder it and move forward through it, and eventually beyond it. I don't know. I'm saying this as much for myself as for you.
