I feel lost and confused, and I'm floundering. I thought I knew why I was doing this, but I can't explain it to H, it sounds inconsequential when I try to put into words. I guess I could have waited another month. I'm sorry, I'm messing my family's lives up, but I thought I was doing the right thing. I really did think it was the right thing.
I'll be OK, I'm just a little upset at the moment. And so will the kids.
