Thanks for your thoughts Gardener. I have been giving this lots of thought and prayer today, as I sort out what happens next for me. You would think I would be jumping for joy that H has made the decision he has about OW. A few weeks ago, I thought I would have. And, don't get me wrong, I am very, very encouraged. And, it does seem sincere. But... this now puts me in this difficult spot, and it is testing me to my core. Well, I don't think there is any reason for him to know about this forum. It is for me, and it has been a lifeline. The friend is female, but H doesn't know I have been confiding in her. She has been a helpful, more neutral person than family members or closer friends would be able to be. But, again, that is just for me.
Anyway, continuing sorting this out, remembering the steps I've taken to get to a place of strength for myself... finding my way back there if I can...
