Tired of the game

[JCJ]

Thanks guys. He should receive the forms next week. They will be harsh for him; I'm citing his adultery and requesting that he pay all costs.

Yesterday I sent him the form for him to relinquish my pension bond and for him to take his name off our bank account (remember back from months ago??). I put in a present that I had bought him ages ago for his birthday but never got a chance to give him which has been kicking around for ages. It had a note basically saying 'you might as well have this as I won't be seeing you anymore', in not so many words, and asked him to do the bank stuff so I could make a fresh start. The present was a moving model of a drummer that you make up as he is a drummer and he loves those kits. I thought it might inspire him to sign away my bond as he could fight it and say no, even though I am the one that has paid into it and it is my pension.

I got an email from him tonight saying this

Hello. Came home today to find your parcel outside the door which was a really nice surprise. Thank you very much! I will make a start on it when I have a free moment! At the moment I'm totally swamped at work. Last weekend I was in both days for (goes into what he has been doing at work) However all this does mean I will be at work for 19 days without a break by next weekend so I am looking forward to some time off.


It would be really good to meet up, I want to hear all about what's happening at work. However I have more driving to do next week (responding to real calls!) so I know next week is out. Perhaps the week after? I won't cancel on you, I promise.


I will get that (bond) thing done tomorrow. Hope you're okay.
H.

See, this is nice and it throws me. I have been doing so well lately. I don't know what I'm supposed to do, although I am not in a spin and am calm, ugh! I am not DBing anymore and even if he expressed a wish to come back now (which I think we can all say is less than unlikely) I don't want him back. I am sad about the fact I will be divorced but that is as far as it goes. So what would be the point of seeing him? But still somehow I am torn.

Edit - just as an aside, at work for 19 days without a break?! I am glad that I am not married to that. I believe i would probably be in the same position I am now, a work widow, but with less opportunities to carry on with my life!