Good to see you are ok...You are in my thoughts & prayers my friend.
Isaiah 40:31 "but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
It continues to be so hard living together with the D in process. My emotions continuously go from sad to mad. Sad for the loving M we had before H had MLC. Sad when I get to thinking of all the awesome memories we shared together. Sad that it is about to come to an end. Sad H is throwing us away for ow.
I fell in love with him when he had nothing. He lived in an old rental house, had an old car and truck that hardly ran, and didn't have much money. I loved him for who he was. We now have a beautiful home, several vehicles including an awesome Harley, and making good money. She wants him for what he has, and what he can give her. She has been M and D three times, is fifteen years younger than him, and he is her old boss. She is desparate, and he doesn't see it. All he can see, is this much younger woman falling all over him. She will do and tell him anything to hold on to him. He is so blind. I have never told H this, as they say you should never bring up ow. Will there ever be a time to tell him how I feel. Shouldn't that be before the D.
I get so mad when I think of how he has treated me and our M with such disrespect. He has treated me so cold and mean, as if I was the one who did this to him.
He came home from work late tonight looking frumpy with his dress shirt hanging out of his pants. He drank a tall glass of water, and went straight to bed. He is now snoring away. I try to have positive thoughts whenever he is out late. Like maybe he is telling her that he has made a big mistake and is going home to see if his W would take him back. But, when he comes home looking like he did tonight, I can pretty well guess what he has been up to.
It all still feels sureal. Like I'm going to wake up and find that this has just been a very bad dream.
I just wanted to wish you a very Happy Thanksgiving. I feel very thankful to have met you on this forum and for all the support you have given me.
I know I have not been very active these past few months...I think a bit of depression is settling in for me as I start the process of accepting my reality...I was reading your thoughts these last few weeks and.... I cannot imagine how difficult it must be watching things unfold in front of you. You have a powerful source of strength in God.
Anyways, for today....I am very grateful...and I just wanted to let you know. I hope you are having a wonderful day and doing well.
Hope you had a good Thanksgiving. I'm sure you just want to smack your H for not be able to see the OW for who she is. It is truly amazing how they can sink their hooks in.
You sound like you are doing okay and handling it okay. I know what you mean about wanting to wake up and find out it was all a bad dream.
Keep holding on to your faith and remember God is in control.
Hey, friend, just checking in on you. Haven't heard from you in awhile though I do understand. If you feel like it, let us know how you are doing. Hope you are okay!
I have been trying to "Be Still" and listening for HIS voice to tell me HE is with me and to keep my eyes on HIM.
I spent three hours ( one in the morning and two in the afternoon ) in my attorneys office last friday. There is a pre conference hearing this friday, and we were wrapping up my paperwork, and getting all my ducks in a row. I'm sticking by my original terms and going for all I'm entitled to. H is absolutely going to be PO'd! Remember, H didn't want me to have much of anything. ( H cheats on me, and then wants to be selfish ) AND still living under the same roof, it's not going to be a pretty picture around here. In fact while I'm writing this, H took his briefcase ( where I'm sure all his D paperwork is stored ) into the office and is on the computer printing out papers. As far as I know, H is still representing himself. My attorney is amused as to where he is coming up with his forms. They look really strange to her. Unfamiliar as to the proper forms you should be using. WHATEVER..... I've surrendered all.
On a lighter note.....
My friend told me there is a man at church that is interested in me. She was supposed to introduce me to him yesterday after church, but right after the sermon, I got nervous and booked it to my car. On the way home, I got to thinking I wished I wouldn't have done that. So then, he called me. I wasn't familiar with the number, so I didn't answer it. He left a nice message, and would like me to return his call whenever I would like. He even said "GOD BLESS" before he hung up. I was told he is a very nice and handsome man. SO..... Should I call him back? Could this mess up the D proceedings? If my H found out about it would he call me on it? On the other hand..... I could really use a soft place to land right about now.
Please give me your thoughts..... How should I go about this?
Hmmmm . . . not sure what to advise regarding the man who is interested. I know what you mean about needing a soft place to land. How long does it take for divorce to be final where you live?
I just know from your posts what your convictions are and that you have been standing for your marriage. It ain't over til it's over and if you are worried at all about having another relationship during the divorce proceedings maybe you can explain to the guy you need to wait. If he is truly interested he would still be there later (or someone else!). I don't know, just my thoughts.
