So I "lead" last night that he came over to stay because it was my D's nameday. He pulled away and I asked him "so, you are not sexually attracted to me at all?". He said, "the doctor said I shouldnt". I was about to scream at him that "being able to" and "wanting to" are 2 different things. I know how a man responds and is when he wnats a woman sexually. He is no where close to that.
I got angry because he missed his appointment at the doctor on the 20th and he had to reschedule for the 7th. That doesnt sound like he was looking forward to spend "time" with me. He doesnt care.
This IS a dealbreaker for me. Because it affects me deeply. He spent years before the bomb telling me he was just not that interested in sex, then he told my GF 2 months before he moved out that I was blocking him because of all the shame and confidence issues I had in bed, and then I found out he was having a GREAT time with her. All this time, he never bothered to tell me, he enjoyed having sex with me, that he liked my body, that he wanted me etc etc. The more I feel wanted, the more sexual/sensual I become. It's the way I am wired. I was reminded last year how happy I am when I feel desired and wanted and how much that fills up my love bank and makes me want and desire my man back.
