Can I save my marriage?

[ugetvince]

Im not sure..If you look at my sitch my w kind of opened a couple of weeks ago after I had surgery but when I thought there might be an opening apparently I pushed to far. Know there is minamal communication except about the kids.
Today is my Daughters first birthday and my heart is breaking that im not with her and spending time with her. Ive always been a very hands on Father and i just called to say Hello to her and I feel so crappy I dont what do??