Maybe I should have that list tattooed on me instead lol....

I wish I had read it before I allowed some wallowing however I am better now for having read it...

I was contemplating texting (put the wood away) H to have a Happy Thanksgiving but I couldn't bring myself to do it...

I just feel bad for him...

We of course have been apart for many holidays due to him being in the military for 20 years however this is all so new...

Not being with the ones you love on such a special day...

Not knowing if he is going to have a nice homecooked meal...

If he is going to be alone or with her...

I have said it before and I will say it again -

It would be much easier if I didn't love him.

May All Who Seek To Take My Life
Be Put To Shame And Confusion;
May All Who Desire My Ruin
Be Turned Back In Disgrace.
~Psalm 40:14~