I am trying to avoid the whole ordeal truth be known -

Kind of hard with 2 kids...

Normal tradition would be going to my parents house for Thanksgiving, then on Friday get up early with my Sister & Mom for Black Friday Shopping - H would have the lights hung for Christmas by the time I got home and we would then decorate the house, put up the tree, build a fire etc...

Now I have no house to decorate, no spouse to hang lights and snuggle with by the fire, the kids aren't happy with the way things are right now, I hate the way things are right now...

I have no freakin clue how I am going to get through tomorrow much less Christmas.

I am thankful for what I do have, I am thankful I have a roof over my head, food on the table, clothes on my back, my family, my children, all of you etc...

I am not thankful of the situation at this present time.

I am trying to keep the mindset of "In Everything Give Thanks" but there is a piece of me who just doesn't have it in her today.

May All Who Seek To Take My Life
Be Put To Shame And Confusion;
May All Who Desire My Ruin
Be Turned Back In Disgrace.
~Psalm 40:14~