Not Me...Ever part 2

[Gardener]

Hey, Serenity,

I didn't see you or look for you until now, And now I'm logging off in a few minutes.

I hope you are serene.

[Serenity13]

Gardener ~

Just had a chance to get on...

Going to bed early tonight since we have court at 8am tomorrow...

Had a mini breakdown earlier in front of my Dad...

Let's just say that no matter what I do/don't do say/don't say, it is always H's fault and well I get tired of it...

Then S informed me he would rather live with his Dad (as if pigs just flew out of my butt) and I took it as offensive...

Called him a traitor (I know I know) and couldn't understand why he has no loyalty to me and what H has done to all of us...

He just wants to live where life is easiest for him. (Sounds just like his Dad)...

I am not trying to turn my kids against their Dad, I haven't even uttered a bad word about H in front of them but damn a little anger towards HIM and not me would be nice for a change.

And that is my day in a nutshell...

I would accept some prayers for tomorrow from all of you that pray.

(((Hugs)))

[Serenity13]

Hey BIM...

Nice to see you as always...

I was just going to catch up on your thread and saw this message...

It is funny, when I was pregnant with both boys, I prayed for boys...

No girls...

I know how girls are and never had the patience for them plus I know what a handfull I was and up until recently, the boys have been wonderfully the exact opposite of girls...

Now - Not so much

(((Hugs)))

[Gardener]

Serenity,
Yep, that's a rough day, alright.

Apologize to son for "Traitor". But you know that.

This entire group is part of my prayers every night. I will set phone alarm for 8:00 am and think positive thoughts for you tomorrow in court.

[Serenity13]

Gardener ~

I apologized of course...

It just stings to know he isn't as mad and hurt as I am however I don't want it to cloud his thoughts so I normally keep mine to myself until after they are in bed...

No need to wake up early (I am sure you are an hour ahead of me anyway)...

And thank you for the prayers my friend, y'all are always in mine as well.

[Serenity13]

Good Afternoon To All ~

I hope this finds you all having a wonderful day before Thanksgiving.

So far it has been ok here...

Got up far to early to be in court, S was put on probabtion (indeterminate amount of time - up to age 19) and given 100 hours of community service.

We will also have to pay restitution once that is final.

He is now subjected to random drug testing as well as random curfew checks...

Can't be outside of the house after 8pm nor before 6am ...

He can't leave the state or move from the house we are in unless court approved...

Let him know in no uncertain terms am I living with my parents for another 5 years!

He was fingerprinted once again and also given a DNA test...

After court we had to go meet his PO and had to sit there for another hour and fifteen minutes while she explained to us exactly what happens upon starting probation...

Good thing to come out of this (if I was really mean and evil like he thinks), if he is rude or disrespectful, all it takes is one phone call and he will be placed in secure detention for 5 days.

So the million dollar question - Did H show?

Of course not

He did text me before we walked into court to ask me to call him when we were done.

I didn't bother...

Waited for him to do it...

For someone who claims to want to be a part of his children's lives, he sure has a s****y way of showing it.

So beyond that, all is well in my land today.

[tristan]

Serenity,

Have a Happy Thanksgiving.

-Tristan.

[Gardener]

Serenity.
It all sounds tough but fair. Betcha your boy stays back on the straight and narrow.

Pretty cheesy that H didn't show/texted instead. Glad you didn't call like he asked you to.

I would've ignored his call and returned it 3 or 4 hours later.

[Serenity13]

Thank you Tristan and the same to you and your family

I agree Gardener and I really didn't care to call him so I waited until he called me then let it ring 5 times before I answered it.

I am a little stunned he didn't show up though, considering he is off of work today - I just want to scream at him - Damn man that is your son - Forget me - Do it for him...

What in the hell is wrong with him? - Scratch that - I don't even want to know anymore...

He didn't even ask about the little one, made me glad I didn't ask him for Thanksgiving...

Selfish, self-absorbed prick is all I have for him today.

[Gardener]

Sounds like you pretty much nailed it in that last line.