P17, Forgive me for coming in very late on the thread but am I to understand that you have no hope of ever getting your M back? It seems all too new and fresh for me. I think you have a good chance of saving your M.
Formerly "missherlove"
Me49 XW49 M17 T19 S16 D20
Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.
