WAW on suicide watch, what now???

[MHL]

P17,
I eventually got over the first A but it took time and I did it all on my own, no C, no books, just 1 friend who knew. I found that running was better than working out because the rush of adrenaline was not as intense and did not anger me as lifting weights did.
I know my M as I knew it is over, but I am not done being married to my W. I now try to think back to when we first met and we were both involved with other people when we discovered the attraction to each other. I ended the R I was in immediately however she stayed in hers for about 3 more months after which we started dating but not exclusively at least for her. She had just gotten out of a R and did not want to jump into another right away and so she dated me and others. I remember having patience then but at least we were going on dates and when we were together we were happy. It only took 2 months and that was it we were exclusive to each other. I have to look at the current sitch with her now in a similar fashion. I have to be patient but with limited contact (kid exchange), and knowledge that she wants to end the M. I know patience is the key thing here and I have to GAL. The hard part is that I have the kids and 99% of the responsibility. She is free to do whatever the h*ll she wants and she did just that. We will see what happens when she gets out of the hospital, but I cannot check up, spy or otherwise inquire, just detatch and GAL and move on. I find the difficult times for me are when I am doing things that she normally did, especially cooking dinner. That is a bad time for me b/c I am not that good at it and she was/is great at it. That is the loneliness for me and at times can cause stress.

I am trying to get out more but I have tons of friends that have been great and my W and I were the social center of the neighborhood but I find it hard to be around them in a social setting b/c it is all couples which is a reminder of my sitch. All of our friends think that my W has flipped her lid, which IMHO she has, thus the MLC / WAW thing. I am trying to meet more single people with whom I can socialize only not trying to have a R. I take it a day at a time, if I think to far into the future I start to get down.

I have read your sitch thread and wanted to ask some things of you, I will post on your thread.

Thanks for the post, its good to know that you are not alone and there are others going through exactly what you are going through.