This will be my first holidays since our separation. When we had our s5, I really enjoyed Halloween. I would decorate and cook and have family and friends over. There were many kids and the occasion brought out the kid in me. This year, W was suprised that I wasn't going to have a party. Just too much emotion on my part. It just wasn't the same.
I thank God everyday for my family. Because if it weren't for them, I don't know how I'll get through my first holidays without my W and s5. It's been painful, expecially the thought of Christmas morning waking up and not have s5 and W opening gifts, then going to church. What's ironic is that previous Christmas's W and I had spats in where to go next--there were too many events to fill out the day. Now, just one place--but it will be filled with family that will accept me just the way I am.
