feels like I'll wake up from this nightmare at some point.
I understand and feel for you. But, sometimes we have to wake ourselves up from the nightmare. No waiting for it to happen.
And, yes, it's painful, but you have to make a decision to keep walking out of that painful place. It will take time, but a lot less time if you keep moving.
Check out Coach's thread on surviving the holidays. In short, stay busy.
And, I know none of this advice is going to make the pain go away. But it will help you to work through it.
