WAW on suicide watch, what now???

[MHL]

Thanks for the confidence Sandi, I got started this morning with a workout, I lost 70 pounds through this whole thing and at 6' 3" , 165 pounds doesn't look great. I only thought about her once or twice during the workout. Early on in the storm after I found out about the first A, I couldn't do it b/c of all the negative feelings that it drummed up.

I have a plan in place for the holiday weekend so that I will be busy and have plenty of people to call if I get down. I am not worried about trying to contact her or her family, just worried about getting down about the loss of my partner in life. Its not that I miss her so much, I miss the idea having someone else to help and support as you raise your kids, take on challenges, celebrate success and share life's experiences. Sometimes the feeling of being all alone is overwhelming. Luckily my Dad and his wife #3 will be here to help and see the kids.

In very similar ways I think my W and I have hit rock bottom in this whole ordeal but we can't recover together. We have to do so as individuals on our own.

Happy Thanksgiving