First time poster feeling a bit lost

[MT21]

Looked everywhere for any shred of OP, nothing....

Like I said though I dont care if there is OP, and thats good way of describing it, OP is a symptom. just noise around a an already difficult situation.

You are of course right, I need to stop breaking down. She is v.strong but then shes probably been building the fortress for years...

Thanks all for the advice.