Wife says she wants me to move on

[brknheart]

update on my sitch:

Its been almost 1 mth 1 week since Ive had any real contact with my WAS. I asked her to not contact me unless it was important. She did come over a week or so ago thinking I wasnt home, but stayed outside. I went to see what she needed, she said she sorry didnt think I was home. I nodded and went back inside. She was still outside so I txt her saying to come in if she needs to. She left, txt me awhile later saying she was very sorry for coming by, she didnt think I was home, and she wanted to respect my wishes not to see her. It turned out that she did txt me earlier asking if I was home, I didnt have my phone nearby. Ive been doing a lot better, getting use to the "single" life. I still get lonely sometimes but its not nearly as bad as when this thing started. The last 2 days havent been very good though. I dont dream much but ive been dreaming about her. The last contact I had was an email I sent about going out of town for Thanksgiving and she would stay at the house. She replied and seemed very calm and "ok". The thing that keeps going through my head is the fact she really doesn't care about me anymore. Unless she is getting info about whats going on with me from other people, its hard to come to gripes that she can just right me off so fast after 11 years of marriage. I guess thats what happens with WASs. The comment she made in the txt "respect your wishes not to see me", the only reason I dont want to see her is the fact she is doing what she is doing, not because I dont care or love her. I really wish I didnt care anymore, things would be so much easier... I took the next step of moving on the other day, bought a bunch of boxes to start packing. I plan on moving out of the house to another city about a month before the divorce date.

On the bright side, Im going to be with family this holiday, many people who are very supportive. Im going to have a great time and eat some good bird.