WAW on suicide watch, what now???

[MHL]

Sandi,
No I don't feel like a doormat. I know she knows what she did is wrong but wants to be happy more than doing what is right. I understand about doing the the 180's for myself but it is hard not to think about the possibility of us getting back together. I feel like I need to keep the door open in my mind so if she starts to change or show interest I will be receptive. I guess I am afraid of total detatchment b/c I might not want her back or even want to work on the R if she starts to come around.

My daughter has a great C at school and she checks on my D daily. I will give her the space and time she needs and have decided to not talk about my W with her anymore unless she wants to. At some point she made need more specialized help but she had such a bad experience during JC with my W that I am not sure if she will agree to return. D13 is more concerned w lies Mom told to her about other men and promises not to do it anymore also to break it off with the current OM.

It will be 2 weeks this Sunday since we talked. I am comitted to not contacting her until she contacts me about visiting with S9. I will just keep it basic, when, where, how etc. I will also back off the family also, I know talking to them is like talking with W.

Thanks for the advice on the 180's, will try to get the mindset that it is for me.