The OW words really tore a hole in me. It was hard and so painful to read.
He came home from the gym and I was in the shower and he just let himself in (unlocked the door with a pin). I was already done though. I walked out and left him there. Went into the kitchen and fixed myself a snack because i didn't cook. Only for my kids.
He tried to talk to me and asked me what the emails the OW said. I just remained calm and quiet. he kept saying that my not speaking to him isn't hurting him. And he also said "so this is how things are going to be?" he also said " so this is done then?" When he pressed further I told him that it's done and that I won't allow myself to continue fighting for someone who doesn't want me.
He then wanted to know what the OW said and I read him the emails and he just mumbled ridiculous.
I went into my room and he followed me and asked when we'd be putting the Xmas decorations up and If we could do it tomorrow. (he's leaving Tuesday). I told him yes and he just stood there. Like waiting for something. He then said goodnight and went to our media room. He then text me to ask if i wanted to join him and I said no thanks. Why is he asking me to watch movies?
Do I set boundaries even if he has already expressed that he doesn't want to work things out? He keeps saying we are not together. I know him leaving is going to drive me mad.
M: 32 H: 34 S:5 D: 3 D: 1 Together 11 years Married 7 Bomb: PA/EA 8/13/09 (for 1 year on and off) ILYBINILWY: 08/09
"The end of suffering happens with the end of wanting." -Laura Munson